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- Chrissy Teigen shared an emotional Instagram post on Wednesday saying that she will never be pregnant again.
- “I love being pregnant, so so much, and I’m sad I never will be again,” Teigen wrote alongside a mirror selfie showing the baby bump she still has.
- The supermodel and cookbook author suffered a pregnancy loss in September and has publicly grieved her lost son, Jack, ever since.
- Teigen and her husband, singer-songwriter John Legend, are parents to two toddlers: daughter Luna and son Miles.
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Chrissy Teigen is opening up about her physical recovery almost three months after her pregnancy loss and mourning that she’ll “never” be pregnant again.
In a new Instagram post Wednesday, Teigen shared an unedited mirror selfie of her body.
“This is me and my body, just yesterday. Even though I’m no longer pregnant, every glance in the mirror reminds me of what could have been,” she wrote.
"I have no idea why i still have this bump, honestly," she continued. "It's frustrating. But I'm proud of where this entire journey took my body and mind in other ways. I love being pregnant, so so much, and I'm sad I never will be again."
She also celebrated her "two little ones," Luna and Miles, who she wrote "are transforming into big little people more and more every single day."
Teigen, a supermodel, cookbook author, and beloved internet personality, is known for being honest and raw with her followers and giving them an unfiltered look at her life with her husband, singer-songwriter John Legend, and their toddlers.
Throughout her third pregnancy, Teigen shared regular updates with fans about her pregnancy complications
Teigen posted about her "weak placenta" and doctor-ordered bed rest on her Instagram stories and grid. During one of her hospital trips, Teigen even shared a light-hearted video of Legend making her one of his famous "nightstand sandwiches."
Insider's Canela López reported that prior to her pregnancy loss Teigen had been diagnosed with partial placental abruption, which occurs when the placenta detaches partially from the inner uterine wall before the baby is delivered. A partial placental abruption can cut off the oxygen and nutrients to the fetus, causing heavy bleeding for to the parent, and can be deadly for both, López wrote.
On September 30, Teigen, who was about halfway through her pregnancy at that point, shared a series of intimate photos of herself from her hospital bed with the news that the baby, a boy they'd named Jack, had died. She had gone to the hospital a few days earlier for "excessive bleeding," Insider reporter Anneta Konstantinides previously wrote.
"We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we've never felt before," Teigen wrote in the announcement of their loss.
She said that "despite bags and bags of blood transfusions," it wasn't enough to "give [their] baby the fluids he needed."
"To our Jack - I'm so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn't give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you," Teigen added.
Teigen was absent from social media for almost a month before she returned with a Medium post titled "Hi" sharing the experience of prematurely delivering Jack and documenting the weeks following her pregnancy loss.
She wrote about being wheeled down the hallway to the delivery room as other people cheered.
"I was about to fully deliver what was supposed to be the 5th member of our beautiful family, a son, only to say goodbye moments later," Teigen wrote.
She added that "the moments of kindness" in the weeks that followed "have been nothing short of beautiful."
"I went to a store where the checkout lady quietly added flowers to my cart. Sometimes people will approach me with a note," she said. "The worst part is knowing there are so many women that won't get these quiet moments of joy from strangers. I beg you to please share your stories and to please be kind to those pouring their hearts out."
She asked her readers to "be kind in general, as some won't pour them out at all."
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